My daughter attends middle school at CAPA, the Pittsburgh public school system magnet school for creative and performing arts. Her standard academic work is supplemented by a major, in her case the Literary Arts program. Friday last was a 'Take Your Father to School' day. We've done 'Take your Sons and Daughters to Work' for a couple of years, so this was my chance to go back to school.
Classroom
Today, the class is to work on capturing the intersection of the City and Nature. We'll be going on a walk for 2 hours, through the city, stopping in a few places to sit and meditate/open up/observe. There will be no talking. The teacher stresses this point. No talking. The students all have other projects to work on - if they cannot agree to the rule of silence, they are to stay behind and work on these. They talk about inner silence, observation: they talk about meditation as a writers tool.
Katz Plaza
There are about 20 students, one teacher. I am The Wanderer, prepared to be humiliated as an outsider. On 9th street, a few feet from the school door: a group has gathered around some weeds in a crack on the pavement. I see everyone, already writing.
I try to spy on their notebooks. Walter Benjamin looked for 'biology in the asphalt' when he wrote about Paris. That was the life of the Flaneur, of Baudelaire. William Blake lays Jerusalem atop London. William Wordsworth considers the Thames. Iain Sinclair breaths the fumes around Hawksmoor's cathedrals. I remember that just a few days before I had written a blog post about the Point, about the shape of Pittsburgh as a Greek Theatre.
The sky is cerulean blue, I imagine since I don't know what colour cerulean really is. This is dark blue and clear, shining through the top of 9th street parking lot.
A fine day for walking. We stop at the Katz Plaza. Across the street,my daughter and a few other students have sat themselves at the magnolia trees. These are bronze cast trees with hand made flowers. I've taken out my notebook and start to write. I see a series of pictures with her sitting there, same spot, many years, beneath the always in bloom, never out of bloom flowers. Same spot. Time of year. Always with long hair (until she cuts it). People around her, some for long enough to see them also change. Others for a year then gone. Taller, gradually holding a fine full lotus pose. The buildings at the corner are cracked, repaired, replaced. Re-used or reconfigured. Book store, cafe, machine shop. Pub, kite store, Fish and Chips.
You could fill a gallery with portraits of the students in their various attitudes of sitting, writing, thinking. A few walk, but it is a good looking walk, a looking walk.
The Katz Plaza has a fountain, a messy pyramid each step with a different curve, different edges. As water fills eventually overflows and small but steady falls for a few minutes until another forms. Details to catch the eye. I sit in the shade of planted linden trees, letting the leaves affect my focus until I see a larger pattern, dispersed fully over the whole, of smallest wind blown water droplets each also catching light.
The teacher calls us together and before we walk gives additional pointers. The students must use concrete images in your text, fully formed descriptions. It is as well that I am only auditing the class. My writing resides within the landscape, but I am always hunting Quidds, looking for the vestige of memory.
Gateway
I've been in the gardens here before, but during the Three River Arts Festival when the paths are filled with aisles of vendor booths. The sense of mid-morning lull continues. I could stop in and grab a coffee. Maybe a muffin or a bagel. I was so anxious about surviving the school schedule that I haven't eaten yet. I know lunch is early, but I am dyspeptic and run my schedule to avoid indigestion and constipation.
The students have stopped at a fountain and are settled in. Most of them have balanced precariously and are will soon be falling in to the pool. I walk around. I try to get some pictures on my phone. The water masks traffic sounds. Birds are singing, and sweet garden pixies giggle around the rhododenra. Quickly idyllic, the shock of silence. This fountain is pristine, water opalescent on the painted surface. A steam vent from the underground trolley system discharges, the spaces between leaves are filled, merging, a mist. Sunlight strikes the buildings and their modernist patterns.
A woman suprises me. She's wearing a round dress, turquoise with purple beads. Her hat is wrapped and floppy. She carries a bag across her shoulder. She asks again "Did you hear me?" I hadn't, and said so. "No, I didn't". My voice is thick, but echoes in my ear. "Nice staff" . She is commenting on my walking stick, a piece of Sassafras wood I use to accommodate poor balance when I walk outside. I nod. She keeps walking and from over her shoulder says "A Staff in the Left, a Rod in the Right".
The River
I am sitting on a rock border around the landscaped edge of Point State Park. Most of the students have gone down steps and are out of my sight. I know they are perilously close to the edge of the water, because I have seen their appalling disregard for safety. We are across the river from and roughly in the center between Heinz Field and PNC Park, football and baseball stadiums.
It is Wordsworth I think of, standing on Westminster bridge. The poetry of domes, bridges, temples. The majesty of the city at dawn. The river moving through. A mighty heart. No doubt if I had taken my literature class as seriously as my daughter takes her, I would have memorized this poem and could stand to recite - looking upriver, yellow Ft. Duquesne Bridge, the Allegheny still dark and slow before any sun has risen far enough to cast relief upon the ripples
Instead, I can Google it when I get home.
EARTH has not anything to show more fair: |
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Dull would he be of soul who could pass by |
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A sight so touching in its majesty: |
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This City now doth like a garment wear |
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The beauty of the morning; silent, bare, |
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Ships, towers, domes, theatres, and temples lie |
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Open unto the fields, and to the sky; |
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All bright and glittering in the smokeless air. |
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Never did sun more beautifully steep |
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In his first splendour valley, rock, or hill; |
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Ne'er saw I, never felt, a calm so deep! |
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The river glideth at his own sweet will: |
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Dear God! the very houses seem asleep; |
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And all that mighty heart is lying still! |
Several steam boats are moving around the Point, converted barges used for tourist trips and office parties. I watch the wake and listen for the engines. A throbbing cycle seems to change with every other one of my breaths, perhaps 8-10 seconds. The bridge has an anvil blow each time traffic hits the joints. I watch the choreography of a tractor mowing the sloped grass in front of Heinz Field. Down to the trail, turn on it's axis, up to the top. Down again. Meticulous. I can see the mark of mown lawn, although I guess if I had been across on the un-mown lawn it would still look manicured. That must be a beast of a mower to sprint up hill like that, but from across the river it is a bobbly toy.
Lunch
There's a rush to get back to the school from the 7th grade, who are scheduled for lunch. The 8th graders play it cool, they have class to go to.
I don't know what she will end up with. 25 lines of poetry, contemplating nature and the city with concrete images. Today is Monday when I write this, I'm sure she has a draft and is working through revisions today. I've seen some of her poems before with evocative descriptions. In one, recollections of Berwick-upon-Tweed open up to talk about loneliness and imagination. Last year, she wrote a poem that read like a collage of all her places, all her times, set to describe who she is now. My daughter sent that in a voicemail to her former Waldorf teacher, who I can only imagine felt an equal range of emotions. My daughter, like me, is attached to place, routine, building grooves that keep the world in place.
We are allowed a recess on the roof, which is on the 7th floor and makes all previous worries about water edges seem overblown. I had been looking forward to this, a new perspective, but the view is not what I hoped for. I'm probably not looking carefully enough. My daughter and her friends sit speaking fast, quiet and incomprehensible things to each other.